I'm Okay, I'm OKAY
I hate to leave you all in the dark. 2 days ago I finally made an appt. to see a fertility doctor. 2 YEARS ago my doctor suggested that I see this guy in Syracuse, well, because there was nothing more he could do at this point. All the tests that he had done were coming back fine. The more extensive testing needs to happen in Syracuse.
I put it off. For 2 years. For a few reasons. 1. The cost. And 2. because I was afraid of going to hear him say, you can never have kids. Can you guess which concern belonged to who?
So the other day when I sat down to tell Joe I had made the appointment, and the first words were- omg how much is that going to cost!? I had a bit of a meltdown. We are better now, after having talked about it and I do now realize we really ARE on the same page afterall. But he's just different than I am. He's concerned about things like money. Where I am concerned about actually just having a baby.
So, not to worry. I am going to be okay. I just have to get to April and then we can finally start attempting to get some answers.